"The Perfect Match Wife Xiaoqiu" - Chapter 010, Xiaoqiu's Confession

I opened Xiaoqiu's diary and found that the title at the beginning was very strange. It was called: "My Memoirs" - "My Confessional Memoirs". This made me quite curious, so I continued reading with confusion. Xiaoqiu started with this: Before I started writing, I thought it would be simple and easy to explain, because I always felt that there were not many things I concealed. However, when I carefully recalled each past event from beginning to end, I found that whether it was intentional or unintentional, or just a moment of negligence, there were actually quite a lot of concealments and deceptions, big and SMall. At this moment, I really understand why those saints and prophets enacted the "Spouse's Right to Privacy" and why couples should be above the law when it comes to confessing their privacy. I finally understand why those saints and prophets encourage Between husband and Wife, even if they commit murder or arson, they must tell each other. However, it is easier said than done. We often comfort ourselves, such as the "white lies" we often mention; for example, we often excuse ourselves by saying, "We are all individuals, and we all have our own privacy." The fact is, too In this way, when we are unable to work, if we talk to a man, we must report it to our husband. If a man glances at us, we must report it to our husband. When we have dinner with a Colleague, if a male Colleague pours water for us, we must report it to our husband. . Therefore, it is really difficult to be truly honest unless you don’t deal with the opposite sex. I'm not excusing myself. I can't do it because my dad accidentally pulled my hair when I was sleeping with him. I have to report it to my husband, right? Yes, there are indeed such extreme men. In the TV series "Don't Talk to Strangers", Mei Xiangnan was beaten until the corner of her mouth bled just because she said a word to another man. Middle Eastern women also had to wear scarves to prevent them from wearing clothes. Let strange men see it. Yes, if you can't control it, you will go to extremes. If you treat women as private property, if you are a little more enthusiastic with friends of the opposite sex, you will be scolded and beaten. But are there not many men like this? I am very lucky to live in China, and I am also lucky to be married to such a generous husband as Zhihao. Zhihao has always given me free space. I can chat with colleagues and classmates. It is okay to even have an ambiguous conversation occasionally. Even When I go out to play outside, my husband won’t ask questions. In short, he really respects me. So, if I accidentally forget to tell my husband about a SMall matter, how could he care about me with his temper? However, now that I think about it carefully, I have indeed been clever enough to hide some things from my husband, and I have indeed lied to my husband out of luck, so the title was changed from "My Memoirs" to "My Confessions" 》. So where did the concealment begin? I carefully recalled the past and found that it must have been the first time when I slept in the same bed with my dad. I remember that time, I suddenly got inspired and pretended to let my husband work overtime, then left my dad in the room and indulged all night. Because I really don’t want to hide anything this time, so no matter what is embarrassing or despicable, I will write it truthfully. Therefore, I am not afraid of my husband’s jokes. To be honest, in fact, when I think about it now, the passion of that night is still vivid in my mind.The memory is still fresh in my mind. I still deeply remember the novelty and extreme excitement of sleeping on the same quilt with my dad. It was also because the Pleasure was too strong. For the first time, I took the initiative to lose myself. Before that, I was still shy and waiting, but since that dark night, I took all the positions at once. Lost: My clothes were stripped off by my dad, my whole body was kissed by my dad, I even had sex with my dad once in the morning, I even broke the pot and kissed my dad in a state of confusion and infatuation. Also, from that moment on, I told my first lie because I was deliberately trying to be mysterious and told my husband that I deliberately made the process very exaggerated, saying that I wanted to make my husband happy. In fact, it was just a brief kiss from dad. But the fact is that that night was as crazy as what was written in the diary at that time. The clothes were stripped off, various positions were unlocked, and they were kissed with tongues, because that night, the thought of losing all the positions was so exciting that it was crazy. Moreover, afterwards, in order to maintain a good image in my husband's mind, I lied for the first time because of my cleverness. At that time, I comforted myself that it was just a vague lie. However, now I understand that if a beautiful image needs lies to decorate it, sometimes it will suffer its own consequences, because while you leave the illusion outside, you swallow the ugliness in your heart. The more you swallow, the more you spit it out. Sometimes it gets even worse. of course, the tragedy did not start at that time, because at that time, my husband and I were too much in love with each other. As mentioned at the beginning, if it was just for this reason that I wanted to "protect myself wisely" with a little lie, my husband would not be able to blame me. On the contrary, my husband and I were so in love at that time. After such indulgence, I had a shameless and fierce fight with my father. The next morning, I was still fussy and coquettish and insisted that my husband drive back to pick me up from work. At that time, it was definitely the peak of my love for my husband, because although things happened at the same time, the indulgence with my father is still fresh in my memory at most, but the love with my husband is hard to remember. When I thought about it, my husband became so angry that I went to work acting coquettishly and willfully. I still feel a little happy when I think about it now. So, what happened at the same time, so long ago, when I think back calmly now, the indulgence with my dad was just marijuana at most, but the love with my husband, when I recall it, is like mellow wine. However, it is a pity that I did not understand him so deeply at that time. On the contrary, I neglected the love between me and my husband, and instead fell into the quagmire of lust with my father little by little. Whether I was favored by my husband, or whether I lied for the first time, I lied for the second time. In short, I soon deceived my husband again. Well, on the day when Dad built a house and opened a supermarket, Dad, mommy, relatives and friends all came over to celebrate. Because he drank a lot of wine and slept next to mommy, he was teased by his father-in-law through text messages. In a moment of confusion, he unexpectedly I did it with my father-in-law in front of my father. This makes me feel ashamed and feels that alcohol is harmful to people, just like the day my husband went on a business trip, my dad took advantage of me while I was drinking. Alcohol always makes women confused, otherwise there wouldn’t be the popular saying “Women don’t Drunk, men have no chance”The difference is that after I became confused after drinking for the first time, I was able to tell my husband truthfully. I even told my husband in tears about such an embarrassing thing as having sex with my father-in-law and talking on the phone to him at the same time. As expected, my husband did not disappoint me. He tried every means to relieve my guilt and made me happy. But unfortunately, the second time I got confused after drinking, I didn’t tell my husband anymore. Instead, I deceived myself and wrote a log of the process, and then threw it into the recycle bin. I comforted myself that if my husband could see it, I would just It depends on God’s will. Now that I think about it, it’s a joke. I was embarrassed to let my husband know, but I comforted myself to hope for God’s will. From now on, although my husband and I love each other, it’s obviously not as boring as before, and I don’t have it either. No matter how coquettish Didi is with her husband, she lies more and more. Isn’t it right? If I don’t tell my inner thoughts to my husband who is the one who loves me the most, my husband doesn’t know my inner thoughts. Even if he loves me again, he will feel a sense of distance, right? As expected, things slowly developed in this direction. My forbidden desires with my father gradually overshadowed my love for my husband, and the third lie followed. This time, it was not because of alcohol, but because of aphrodisiacs, because I had a sudden thought and wanted to recall the feeling of taking aphrodisiacs for the first time, but because I took too much at once, I was confused and gave it to my father. Afterwards, I actually remembered it somewhat, and it seemed like I should have swallowed it. However, maybe because I really felt it was too embarrassing that time, I deceived myself and forced myself not to recall this embarrassing thing. So when the medicine wore off, I immediately pretended to be confused in front of my dad, saying that I didn’t remember anything I said, and I comforted myself that if my husband hadn’t asked me, then I wouldn’t have said anything. And my husband, of course, has no idea that he is still trying to plan a "threesome", which actually suits my purpose, because not only do I not reject it, on the contrary, I am looking forward to the life of "one Wife and two husbands". So I worked hard to cooperate with my husband. When my husband was on a business trip, I played the game of "couple pretending" with my father-in-law for the first time. Because, at that time, firstly, my father-in-law and I had pretty much played all kinds of tricks, and there was no passion anymore. Secondly, we also wanted to "correct" my father-in-law. After all, the earlier the lustful threesome comes, the more "calmly" the two of them can enjoy it. A man's love. However, they all say that if you don’t want others to know you, you have to do it yourself. Now think about it, maybe because my husband knew about his father-in-law’s words “Didn’t you swallow it last time” in bed, so my husband’s attitude changed and he didn’t want to have a threesome. After returning from the business trip, I didn’t even mention the threesome. of course, I still loved my husband at that time, or in other words, I have always loved my husband. Once my husband was unhappy, of course I would not shamelessly think about a lewd threesome. Therefore, when I saw that my husband was unhappy, I immediately said that I would no longer acCompany my father-in-law. However, it is easier said than done. After all, I have done all kinds of embarrassing things with my father-in-law. It was very embarrassing to suddenly go from being affectionate to the original "clothes were not taken off". During that period, I felt like I was a comfort woman. Every time I tried to satisfy my father-in-law during the bargaining, that period was reallyI'm so sad, I feel sorry for myself that I did something wrong in my previous life. Later, I thought that God felt sorry for me, or that my husband felt sorry for me and actually arranged for Uncle Wen to give us a house "half for sale and half for free". My father-in-law felt that he had merit, so he begged me to acCompany him. However, my father-in-law broke his promise and tied me up and refused to let me go back. Later, I wanted to tell my husband, but since my husband loved me so much and always thought about me, I didn’t want to hurt the father-son relationship between my husband and my father-in-law. So I comfort myself, my husband loves me, and God loves me too, so I will make up for the mistake, reach a verbal agreement with my father-in-law, and enjoy the last month of madness with peace of mind. But maybe my husband loves me very much, but he was just screwed by me, because I started to be dissatisfied, and used the excuse of indulgence in the last month to indulge myself again and again without a bottom line. To be honest, during that period, maybe I was really addicted, or maybe I said a little goodbye was better than a new marriage, or maybe I held it in for too long, or maybe I felt like the less upright I was, the more I wanted to do it. In short, during that period, my mind was full of desires. He comforted himself that once he indulged enough, he would not think about it again and could live peacefully with his husband. But, in fact, they are just excuses. Just as British sociologists said, we have many excuses and lies every day. For example, I didn’t take the initiative to tell my husband about the braces. My father-in-law gave me sexy Underwear. I bought perfume, a music box

, and a bondage game. I did it with my father-in-law in the garage while carrying a surveillance camera. I didn’t even follow. My husband said, comforting himself that there is no need to report everything to his husband. In fact, you don’t need to report some trivial matters to your husband, and he is not the kind of person with SMall intestines. However, lies are like snowballs, and sometimes they will slowly expand, like boiling frogs in warm water. kill you. For example, later I got used to lying and I thought I would go on a secret date with my father-in-law on Valentine's Day. I comforted myself that it was only once in a lifetime. I even secretly gave my father-in-law the first time in the New Year, and I also did extremely extreme things on Valentine's Day. . Forget it, I'll write out all the processes in detail bit by bit. After all, now that I think about it, trivial lies are also lies, aren’t they? As I write and write, I feel like I can’t finish all these concealments and lies. No wonder the British say that everyone tells an average of 20 lies a day. I was I still don’t believe it. However, don’t worry, husband, this time, I will definitely hide nothing and present all my truest self to my husband bit by bit from the first time I concealed it, just like what my husband said, “your first 20 years.” I can't participate, I hope we can always be together in the future." So, how could I bear to let my husband miss out on my inner world this year? Therefore, although my Wife has done something wrong, she is willing to do her best to make up for it. Finally, I want to talk about the matter of me following my father and running away from Home. The reason why I ran away from Home was because I really thought that you fell in love with Morfin and didn't want me anymore. Think about it, at the beginning,It was you who suggested playing this taboo game with dad, but after I was "played badly", you fell in love with Morfin without saying a word, and even threw me away, and beat me in front of so many people. How much can a woman think about at that time? I just instinctively protected you and hid in a hotel because I couldn't go back to my parents' Home because I love to cry. If I went back, my parents would definitely make trouble for you. However, I hid in the hotel for three days and cried all my tears. Okay, you don’t call me to coax me Home, you don’t worry about my safety, and you don’t even send me text messages. It's okay. I took the initiative to send you a text message, hoping that you could pick me up and let us have a good talk. But every time, it was my dad who called me, but I was disappointed again and again. Every time I saw it was my dad Calling. Yes, I felt sad and cried for a long time, because at that time I just wanted you to care about me a little bit. But you never showed up, and dad still showed up at the hotel. Dad was indeed here to comfort me, but he coaxed out all my grievances at once. I thought to myself that my husband doesn’t love me anymore, and I still have to stay with Morfin. Together. When I thought of this, I was so angry and my brain was so hot that I couldn't take advantage of you. I hated you so much at that time. I thought, even if my whole life is over, I don't want you to be with Morfin. So I want to make it impossible for you to work in the Company and shameless to stay in this city. of course, I really didn’t know at the time whether you just had a one-night fling with director Wang, or whether it was Valentine’s Day. Because that night, when dad and I were doing embarrassing things, you were so heartbroken that you acted drunkenly. So, it was my fault first. Maybe, this is God’s punishment for me. However, I really learned a lot from this mistake and learned to love you even more. I will convince you that everything I say comes from the truest voice of my heart. Signature: Love you Xiaoqiu