hymen rupture

Broken Hymen In the fall of my senior year, I finally broke up with my girlfriend who I had been in love with for three years at School. I think I still love her very much, but she is planning to go abroad with a graduate student to find happiness on the other side of the sea. It was a golden and beautiful autumn day. Among the yellow leaves in the sky, I was the only one secretly feeling sad. Later, in that autumn, I met Xiaojun, Xiaoqiang and Xiaogang. Together with them, they formed this "hymen destruction team". All three of them have left School. Xiaoqiang and Gang have been working for several years and have already rushed to the front line of labor and production. Xiaojun graduated from technical secondary School and spent many years in the underworld without knowing it. When I met them, I was still struggling with the pure pain of lovelorn, using my last few Dollars to get drunk in a SMall, dark bar. The three of them were the same as me. They had just been dumped by their girlfriends or had just dumped their girlfriends, and they were all in a bad mood. So after filling our stomachs with alcohol, we got to know each other in a daze. Forming this "hymen destruction team" was originally a joke among us. Out of the pain of broken love, we vowed to rape each of the Virgins and use their most precious blood to commemorate our lost pure feelings. This joke finally became a reality. Xiaogang and the others organize our activities every weekend very seriously. Everyone is very persistent and takes destroying hymens as their own responsibility, and they are determined to destroy hymens one after another. At that time, I was still a Virgin. My experience with sex was limited to passionate kisses with my girlfriend. However, after getting to know the three of them, my sexual progress has simply been rapid. Xiaoqiang and Xiaojun are both masters at picking up girls. Compared to the two of them, Xiaogang is even more of a master. He can always pick up the most worthy girl for him in the shortest time and on the most critical occasion. For Xiaogang, taking the Underwear of a beautiful woman in the midst of the chaos is like picking something out of a bag. I'm pretty handsome too. Although I can't keep up with Andy Lau, I'm at least equal to Chow Yun-fat. So there are always girls willing to take the initiative to approach me. In addition, I continued to humbly learn from Xiaogang and others, so I soon forgot about my college girlfriend with freckles on her face. Every weekend, when the moon is dark and the wind is high, our hymen destruction team takes action. ​Actually, we don’t rape, nor do we gang rape. We just get serious about finding and introducing girls to each other, then trying to find ways to verify that they are Virgins, and finally sleep with them. Every time we use the chastity blood of Virgins to soak the toilet paper red. Then use them to make SMall paper flowers. We would make this kind of SMall paper flowers when we were in kindergarten. It's just that the little paper flowers in childhood were as pure and innocent as a child's SMiling face, but now the little paper flowers reveal the degradation of Virginity's Virginity. The first little paper flower I made was dyed red with the blood of chastity by a beautiful female primary School Teacher. She is really a very beautiful girl. She just graduated from a Teachers college and was assigned to teach Chinese in a primary School. Xiaogang introduced her to me and whispered to me: "This girl is so pure. I haven't moved yet, so she is guaranteed to be a Virgin." Within two days of knowing her, we went to bed in her dormitory. . that was my first time, also her first time. She frowned and moaned as I entered her. I feel so naughty, I can't imagine how she stood in class and lectured to the students sanctimoniously. After I finished, I calmly dipped the toilet paper I had prepared into her blood. She didn't even ask why, she just looked at me with a blushing face. Shortly after making the first little paper flower, I dumped her. Although this female Teacher is beautiful, I don't love her. I'm just making my little paper flowers, I don't want to stay private with her for the rest of my life. She is the first, but not the last. After her, I relied on my accumulated experience to chase Virgins one after another and destroy hymens one after another. Being with Xiaojun, Xiaogang and Xiaoqiang, I did learn badly. We never take responsibility for our actions and we never regret anything. We just religiously use the blood of girls to make SMall paper flowers, as if making such paper flowers is a nobler and more glorious thing than sex and ideal. This world is ridiculous. When I was a Virgin, all I heard was the unsettling statement that there were fewer and fewer Virgins in the world. But after I became a member of the "Hymen Destruction Group", I discovered that there are really many Virgins in the world, so many that our group was so busy that everyone died and the entire army was annihilated. The funny thing is that every Virgin likes to talk to you about sex and sexual ethics. Although they have no sexual experience, they have their own unique insights in these aspects. And it seems that every Virgin is in a state of sexual hunger and is willing to go to bed with a man at any time, thus bidding farewell to the traditional era of chastity and purity. I feel very strange. The sanctity of chastity described in books in the past has become worthless in reality. Is this a betrayal of human ethics or a mOral development? I asked Xiaogang: "What is purity?" His answer was: "Have more sex and dream less." The truth is very clear, what more can be said? Xiaogang has made fourTeen SMall paper flowers. Every time he shows us these results, the SMile on his face is pure. Xiaoqiang also made ten SMall paper flowers. He is quite busy at work, so his time and energy are limited. Xiaojun has done the least, and has only made three flowers so far. Except for a few college girls I introduced to him, the rest of the girls always disappointed him after going to bed. Why can't he meet a Virgin? Xiaogang's analysis pointed out that Xiaojun hung out with the gang of girls sitting on the stage all day, and he didn't know many good girls. He had long lost the ability to tell whether they were Virgins. One winter, I actually made five SMall paper flowers. Each flower was brightly red and dipped in blood. In fact, I slept with seven girls, and two of them were not Virgins. I was blind when I met them. I spent the longest time and the greatest efforts to develop relationships with them, but in the end it was them who were satisfied. Winter passes and spring comes. I make these chastity paper flowers day after day with study and devotion. I feel like I’m starting to have a postmodernist sublime temperament. Don't be happy with things, don't be sad with yourself, nothing matters, even the girl's true tears. ReCalling the sadness I felt when my girlfriend just dumped me, I could only curl my lips and say the word "silly" from between my teeth. I think I will no longer be as stupid as before. My past innocence and ignorance have long been destroyed by me along with those hymens. What's left of me is a body full of sexual energy and a professional spirit of picking up girls. The soul is simply dead. I thought I would live half-dead like this until I grow old and die. However, life always changes. There are miracles in the world every day. In the last spring of my senior year, I miraculously fell in love with the sixth Virgin I destroyed. This girl is in her third year of high School. She is not too beautiful, but very pure. She looks delicate every day, with an innocent and reserved SMile. You can tell at a glance that she is a student, and she is also a Virgin. I met her in the city library. Since I had to prepare my graduation thesis for university, I sat across from her in the reading room and studied. When we both looked up at the same time, I SMiled at her and we knew each other. Her name is Xiao Ting. I prefer to call her Xiaoting. It can be seen that she is a girl who does well in School and is very ideal. When I met her, she still had a copy of "Gadfly" in her Schoolbag. She stroked the cover of "Gadfly" and told me seriously: "This book describes the strength of the soul and unyielding ideals." Xiaoting was still very simple, full of longing for the future. And I, apart from making SMall paper flowers, have almost no strong soul and unyielding ideals. So I am not a gadfly, I am a gangster. The next night, I went to bed with Xiaoting. I have also passed the college entrance examination and had an ideal. Therefore, I clearly understand what innocent high School girls like Xiaoting want to hear and what they like to hear. That night, I invited her to a cabin I rented off campus. The moon was very round, and a cat in heat was howling outside the window. I told her about my experience in the college entrance examination, about persistence and patience, about "How Steel Was Tempered", and about existential philosophy. When I felt that there was a hint of admiration in her eyes when she looked at me, I accurately grasped the opportunity. ​I'm not a newbie. I touched her with my fingers, making it difficult for her to control herself. When I finally entered her, she hugged me tightly and let out a scream. The shrill scream echoed in the quiet night sky for a long time. That night I was very excited. Xiaoting's blood stained a large piece of toilet paper red. I was determined to use it. Xiaoting leaned in my arms and gently stroked my arm. Her eyes seemed to be still pure, just like the sea in Jiuzhaigou, quiet and peaceful. But I know that she is no longer a Virgin, she was ruined by me. So, I hugged her and enthusiastically told her about our hymen destruction team, the little paper flowers we made, our slogan, and my few paper flowers. Xiaoting listened without saying a word, her face was very pale. Because she suddenly understood that she was being played. I will always remember that moment. Xiaoting stood up and dressed angrily. Her movements are very beautiful, graceful and graceful, like dancing. It seemed that her lower body was still in pain. After putting on her clothes, she covered her lower abdomen with her hands and stood bent over for a while. I saw her shoulders shaking. She must be crying.​Before leaving the house, Xiaoting gritted her teeth and said to me: "You have destroyed me, you are a beast!" Her expression looked like a beast under the light, her eyes radiating hatred and anger, but her face was full of tears. She likes me. I understood when she cried. So, I laughed out loud. She left amid laughter, walking into the vast night without looking back. That night, I used the paper dyed red by Xiaoting and carefully tied it into the most exquisite paper flower. This paper flower is the best I have ever made, beautiful and even, almost perfect. After the pricking, tears rolled down my face. Not regret or sadness. I just want to cry, want to cry for no reason. There is no need for a reason to cry. When Xiaoting cries, it proves that she likes me. When I cried, I thought I also fell in love with Xiaoting. A few days later I went to find Xiaoting. This was the first time I went back to the Virginity I had destroyed. At the gate of her middle School, I saw her with a sad expression, walking out of School alone with her Schoolbag on her back and her head bowed. Two slender and beautiful legs, wrapped in sweatpants, feel particularly attractive. She cried as soon as she saw me. I said to her: "I destroyed you, so I will be responsible for you for the rest of my life." Xiaoting must have been very moved. Her tears wet my clothes. She didn’t go Home at night and went back to my cabin with me. We were tangled together like snakes in bed. Xiaoting said: "You are so kind to me." Her words made me very strange. I only had sex with her to satisfy my explosive desires. I don't want to be nice to her. Even when I said in the afternoon that I would be responsible for her life, I didn't take it seriously. Why does she think I'm nice to her? Maybe I like Xiaoting because she has personality and I don’t; or maybe I like Xiaoting because she has ideals and my ideals are long gone. This kind of liking is like liking a rich person because you have no money. I think it is despicable. But Xiaoting doesn’t think so. She was willing to use her little pocket money to buy me delicious sweet rice cakes, and she was willing to stay with me as much as possible after School every day. She said she liked to look at me and said that I looked like Yang Guo sometimes in a bad way. She hopes that she is the Little Dragon girl, so that there will be everlasting love between us. I don’t want to quit the hymen destruction group yet. But it’s always inconvenient to have Xiaoting following you. Fortunately, I was busy with graduation matters during that time, so there was no awkward situation. Writing a college graduation thesis is as easy as taking a dump. I squat down and make a lot of it. After completing my graduation thesis, I graduated gloriously in June. There is a relative who is enthusiastically helping me find work, but I have nothing to do. At this time, Xiaogang came to me and told me that he had found three avant-garde girls and guaranteed that all of them were Virgins. He made an appointment with Xiaojun, and the three of us were going to put on a good show in the SMall house I rented. Naturally, the Driver was not a carriage, but an old man pushing a cart. These three girls are indeed avant-garde and rebellious. They are very willing to bid farewell to their maiden career on such a double month and double week. So on my SMall bed, three carts were galloping through the sexual wilderness. Sure enough, they are all Virgins. Three bright red blood stains made me feel excitedExtremely excited. The girl under me has

besides having plump breasts, and her howl is also particularly alluring. The girl under her was a little overwhelmed by the rudeness of Xiaojun beside her. While Xiaogang was busy with his own work, he taught Xiaojun: "Slow down and pay attention to the rhythm." He said it as if he was dancing in a ballroom dance. Just when the six of us were having orgasms, the door was pushed open and Xiaoting walked in. She was also holding my favorite sweet rice cake in her hand. Seeing the six of us naked in exciting positions, she was stunned by what she saw. If she was still very pure in her bones before, then after seeing all this, her soul was stained. Everyone looked at me, waiting for me to find a solution to this awkward atmosphere. I had no choice but to blame Xiaojun: "You didn't know to lock the door when you came in at the end." Xiaojun scratched his scalp and laughed. On days when he's not fighting for the underworld, his SMile is pretty cute. Xiaoting clenched her fists and questioned me: "You said you would be responsible for me for the rest of your life, you..." She didn't know what to say. At that time, my hand was still on one breast. I touched this breast and told Xiaoting in a student-like tone: "You have no right to interfere with my private life. I don't love you anymore, so get out of here." Upon hearing this, Xiaoting's tears flowed down. Come down. I said politely: "Remember to lock the door when you go out." After that, I continued to make love. I don’t remember how Xiaoting rushed out crying. The three girls didn't mention it when they finally said goodbye. They had just lost their Virginity, and I think they must all be a little regretful. Before leaving, Xiaojun said to me: "You are so inhumane." His tone was full of admiration. I feel very proud that I can be admired by a gangster. I also know that Xiaoting will never come to me again, and it’s over between us. Fortunately, I used the chastity blood of a girl today to make a SMall paper flower. There are already seven flowers. Under my destruction, the most important film of the seven fairies was blown away by the wind. In any case, it is a sense of accomplishment. Amid the satisfaction of accomplishment, I still feel empty. This emptiness swallows my soul like the vast night sky. I hurt Xiaoting today and destroyed her soul again by defiling her body. There is only one month left before her college entrance examination. I hope she can get into a good university so that maybe she won't resent me for the rest of her life. My wishes are kind. At this moment, I thought I was a good person. I deceived myself and gained psychological peace. But later, I heard from Xiaoting’s classmates that Xiaoting failed the college entrance examination. That day was about a month after Xiaoting’s college entrance examination. I couldn’t help but want to know which city Xiaoting had passed the exam, so I unconsciously walked to the list of their School’s college entrance examination. It was the evening when the sun was setting, and the fragrance of sweet-scented oSManthus floated in Xiaoting's middle School. I had SMelled this kind of scent on Xiaoting before, so I felt particularly familiar with it. A girl at the top of the list said to me, "LittleTing failed the college entrance examination. This is a girl with big braids and beautiful black eyes. She told me meaningfully that Xiaoting collapsed before the college entrance examination. Her spirit seemed to have suffered a severe blow before the college entrance examination. After failing in the first few exams, she did not take the last two exams. She gave up. The girl with big pigtails told me that Xiaoting was originally one of the top three in her class. The Teachers all had high hopes for her and felt that she should have been admitted to a prestigious university... Listening to these words, I suddenly remembered that Xiaoting had once Say to me: You have destroyed me, you are a beast. I don’t think I did anything wrong, I just feel shameful. Out of the psychological pressure of inferiority, I worked hard to please this girl with big braids. I kept making her laugh, and eventually she got into bed with me and had sex in the cabin I rented. This girl with big pigtails is not a Virgin. She said that she and her boyfriend once tried to have sex when they were sophomores in high School. I don't care if she is a Virgin or not. The most important thing is that she is Xiaoting's classmate. So I fucked her hard enough to make her scream in Pleasure. I search for the soul's essence and sin in this cry. I have been keeping in touch with this girl with big braids. Because through her, I can know where Xiaoting is and what Xiaoting is doing. The big braid got admitted to the university where I just graduated. As soon as School started, she cut her braids into short hair that was less than a finger long, and she became indescribably ugly. She shook her short hair and told me with a crooked nose and squinting eyes that Xiaoting was studying in a very ordinary cram School. I didn’t have the courage to go find Xiaoting because I thought I might feel guilty after seeing her. I still like her. Whenever I was in bed with some other girls, I would think of her and how she screamed the first time we had sex. During this period, I found a job in an agency. During working hours, apart from sweeping the floor and carrying water to curry favor with the Section Chief, I also read a lot of newspapers and books. of course, it is also necessary to participate in the activities of the hymen destruction group on weekends. The result of participating in this meaningful activity is: by the time I see Xiaoting again, I have made a total of twenty SMall paper flowers. Xiaoting’s words are still the most vivid and refined. I always miss her when I see this flower. Finally, two months before Xiaoting was going to take the college entrance examination for the second time, I decided to meet her. My intention was to encourage her, so I went to her cram School. She is obviously a little fatter and paler than a year ago. Every girl who takes tutoring does this, and I don’t find it strange at all. But my appearance was beyond Xiaoting's expectation. When she saw me, Xiaoting's tears fell to the floor like broken beads. We stared at each other for a long time. I said, "I wish you good luck in the college entrance examination this year." She walked over slowly, slapped me hard in the mouth, and then fell into my arms and cried loudly. That night, we returned to my dormitory. I have asked my employer for a single dormitory and will no longer rent that pitiful off-campus cabin. On the bed, I told her through my actions how much I missed her this year. She also cooperated with me silently. The SMall bed in the dormitory is in the darkThere was a chirping cry of joy. It's as if Xiaoting and I are having sex, this bed is the happiest. I think Xiaoting and I have reconciled. So I showed her the twenty SMall paper flowers I made very religiously. I said to her: "You are the biggest and most delicate one among them." Her face suddenly changed, and she became devoid of any color. She was angry. She knew I was still destroying my hymen. She was the sixth, but there were fourTeen more in one year. Not only did I fail to learn well, but I became worse. That night, she left overnight. I don’t know if she has enough money for a taxi on her person, but I know that Xiaoting must hate me very much. Someone once said that the college entrance examination is like having sex, the first time is the most important. Boys and girls alike. After the first time, the boys get better and better, and the girls get worse and worse. Xiaoting failed her first college entrance examination. The second time also failed. It’s just that I didn’t stimulate her much the second time, and it was her own failure. of course, I also have responsibilities that I cannot shirk. Because a few days before the college entrance examination, Xiaoting found out that she was pregnant. After failing the college entrance examination, Xiaoting came to see me. At that time, I was writing poems with Xiaogang in the dormitory. Sitting beside him was a girl with bright eyes and sharp teeth. This girl said she would dedicate her Virginity to wHomever had better literary talent, Xiaogang or me. Xiaogang sang a song "Spring Dawn": "Spring sleep without waking up, sexual harassment everywhere." Moaning in the middle of the night, the girl becomes a sister-in-law. I have received a higher education, and of course I am not willing to give up easily. So I made a first line, and as long as Xiaogang made a second line, I would lose. My first couplet is: Menstrual belt, monthly belt, the more you wear it, the better your menstrual belt becomes. This is an eternal absolute. Xiaogang was so full of shit that he couldn't stand up to him. Just when he was about to give up and leave, leaving this girl to me, Xiaoting came. Xiaoting's eyes were a little swollen and she said, "I'm pregnant." I had nothing to say. I am healthy and she has no physical problems. This is a natural thing. My indifference made Xiaoting very angry. She raised her fist and said, "You have destroyed me. You are a beast!" I had heard this sentence before, and it was very familiar and familiar. She said again: "I hate you forever." When she said this, she seemed to become calm again. After saying that, she walked away. She became a little sharper and a little stronger. I think this may be because of reading "The Gadfly". I have also read "This is How Steel Was Tempered", but I still don't have any noble qualities. I admire girls like Xiaoting who can fully draw strength from books. After Xiaoting left, I didn't see her again for two years. In the past two years, the activities of our hymen destruction team have gradually decreased. All four of us were feeling a little bored. It turns out that everything in life will gradually make people tired, and nothing is always worth doing. What's the point of living? In two years, Xiaojun has gone from being a gangster to the status of a SMall boss. Xiaoqiang got rich but became impotent. His desire for money far exceeded his desire for sex, and it was very sexy. Only Xiaogang and I were the same as before. Time is wasted in mediocrity and boredom. During this periodDuring this time, I read a book that moved me very much. The book is called "Perhaps Pain, Not necessarily Happiness". The author Naizuna said in his preface that he wrote about feelings, but I read the purity of the past from that book. I had almost forgotten this noble emotion for a long time. Unexpectedly, a book made me see my former personality again. I hate thinking about the past because it makes me feel even more shameful. So after I was moved, I immediately burned this copy of "Maybe Pain, Not necessarily Happiness". I want to turn my past personality and past loftiness into ashes like Qiu Shaoyun. However, there are many things in life that you cannot help but recall, and there are many people that you cannot forget. Xiaoting is something I can’t forget. For two years, her figure and her expression always flashed before my eyes. I will never forget the first time I met her, she stroked the cover of "Gadfly" and told me seriously: "This book describes the strength of the soul and unyielding ideals." I think this sentence is hers A flag showing the noble qualities beneath her pure appearance. I miss her. I found that missing her made me love her even more. If I see her again, I think I will definitely say to her: "I destroyed you, so I will be responsible for your life." One day when it was raining heavily, Xiaojun told me that he had met Xiaoting. Xiaojun's boss runs several dance halls and nightclubs that provide pornographic services. Xiaojun saw Xiaoting working as a receptionist there. braving the heavy rain, I immediately rushed into the dance hall overnight. When I saw Xiaoting, I almost couldn't believe my eyes. She was wearing a short white skirt that exposed the girl's most private parts, and she was sitting sideways on the lap of a man who was old enough to be her father. The man's big, fat, ugly hands were groping wantonly under Xiaoting's short skirt. Xiaoting said coquettishly: "boss Zhao, you are so bad." After saying that, she saw me. At that moment I thought Xiaoting would cry. But she didn't. She SMiled at me and continued to let the old man touch me. I cried. I know I really ruined Xiaoting. I rushed over, took out all the money I had on me and threw it on the old pervert’s face, telling him that I was keeping this lady tonight, then I pulled Xiaoting and rushed out. I pulled Xiaoting into the heavy rain, and I questioned her. "Do you remember "Gadfly"?" She snorted and said she had forgotten it. The rain wet our clothes and washed away the thick makeup on Xiaoting's face. He finally became pure and charming again. I took her back to my residence. My employer has assigned me a house. The rain kept falling outside the window, like endless tears crying for thousands of years of human sorrow. Xiaoting lit a cigarette and told me about her life in the past two years. After failing the college entrance examination for the second time, she was disheartened. Coupled with the fact that she is pregnant with my child, a girl under twenty years old, you can imagine the pressure she is under. She had an abortion, then worked in several places, and finally worked as a hostess in a bar. She naturally went through the process of not selling her body to selling her body. I said to her: "Remember what I said? I said that I destroyed you, so I will be responsible for your whole life." SheShe sneered and said, "I am no longer the Xiaoting I used to be. I am no longer naive and naive. I will never believe the nonsense you stinky men say again." She stood up to leave before leaving the house. Then she turned around and left me her mobile phone number and told me to call her if I wanted to see a Prostitute and she would charge me half the price. I want to chase her back, but I can't. She is indeed no longer Xiaoting. Through the window, I saw her standing in the rain downstairs for a while, letting the rain wash over her body mercilessly. I thought she must be crying. I felt like if I rushed downstairs and kissed her in the rain, we would get back together. ​But I was wrong. Just when I was thinking about it but before I rushed out the door, I saw Xiaoting turning her face and spitting viciously at my building. At that moment, there was a flash of lightning, and the brilliance of thunder and lightning illuminated the entire night sky, and I also saw Xiaoting's eyes full of vicious resentment. She hates me very much, I'm sure. Her eyes were like a devil, a vixen, and a viper. The tranquility and clarity of Jiuzhaigou Haizi in the past has completely disappeared, no more. ​I feel very scared. After a muffled thunder, I sat down on the ground. I destroyed Xiaoting. I asked Xiaojun to take care of Xiaoting. Xiaojun was very popular in those nightclubs and dance halls. Xiaojun said: "A bitch is worthy of your attention." After hearing this, I really wanted to beat him, but I guess I couldn't beat him. Since then, I have met Xiaoting several times. I asked her out, but she refused. She said that if I wanted to Prostitute her, I would go to their nightclub. In order to see her, I had no choice but to go Whore with her. Sometimes I go alone, sometimes I go with Xiaogang. I remember that time after Xiaogang and I finished having sex with her, she patted me on the shoulder and said that my body was still as good as before. When she spoke, she exuded a strong SMell of inferior perfume, which had long since lost the faint scent of oSManthus from her student days. Later, Xiaoting died and committed suicide. I know that her rot begins deep in her soul. She was once a very ideal and pure girl, her body once exuded the faint fragrance of oSManthus, and she was once inspired by "Gadfly". But she was destroyed by me. Once a person's pure and noble character is destroyed, death is not far away. So, I think maybe I am the only one in the world who knows how Xiaoting died. On the day Xiaoting's body was bid farewell, there was no memorial service, no relatives, and no friends. Probably they thought the death of a Prostitute was insignificant. It was very cloudy that day. The five members of our hymen destruction team and Xiaoting’s mother said goodbye to Xiaoting. Xiaoting's father was heartbroken by her and refused to come. I didn’t expect Xiaoting’s last remains to be so pure, which immediately reminded me of the first time I saw her. At this moment, she no longer wears thick lipstick or wears the kind of professional attire she wears to make a living as a Prostitute. Her face was pure and pale, and there was even a slight SMile at the corner of her mouth. She seemed to be telling me seriously: "This book describes the strength of the soul and unyielding ideals." I understood that Xiaoting was dead. This pure face is just a pile of dead fleshabove. So, at that moment I regretted it. This was the first time I felt so regretful and ashamed. I knelt in front of Xiaoting's body and refused to get up for a long time. Although I didn't cry, my soul was weeping. Xiaoting’s mother cried her heart out in front of me. If she knew it was me who destroyed Xiaoting, would she go crazy and kill me? She won't. Because she couldn't understand the extent of my destruction of Xiaoting. I remembered the slogan of our hymen destruction team, and I realized it all with Xiaoting. But I regretted it. The achievement achieved by the hymen destruction team today is to destroy Xiaoting. I think it destroyed more than just Xiaoting. We made a total of one hundred SMall paper flowers, that is, one hundred girls were destroyed by us. We play with, destroy, trample, torture. One hundred girls and one hundred purity have become our shameless achievements. I do regret it. If Xiaoting survives, I feel that I am no longer qualified to say to her: "I destroyed you, so I will be responsible for your life." A hundred SMall paper flowers were placed around Xiaoting's body. I want all the paper flowers from Xiaogang, Xiaojun and Xiaoqiang. I want to use these one hundred paper flowers to be buried with Xiaoting. I want to use the chastity and purity of these one hundred paper flowers to express my deepest apology to Xiaoting! ! ! Xiaoting's body was cremated together with the one hundred paper flowers. I said to Xiaogang and others: "Let's disband our hymen destruction team." No one objected. This organization is indeed so boring that everyone is tired of it. So, this hymen destruction group that had existed for a long time was finally completely disbanded due to the destruction of a girl. From the day Xiaoting turned into ashes, my soul has been in deep regret. This kind of regret makes me feel that my stomach is shrinking and I feel sick and want to vomit. There are many ghosts of lost Virgins floating everywhere in this city, like flies and mosquitoes, they are everywhere, disturbing my soul. I am determined to leave this city. I want to change myself, I want to live again with the purity that Xiaoting once had. I bought a Train ticket to the farthest city. I want to say goodbye to the past completely, forget Xiaoting, forget those paper flowers, and forget the hymen destruction team. Go far away. No one will remember me anymore, and I don’t want to remember anyone anymore. After getting on the Train, I felt excited. I felt that I was about to get over my guilt about Xiaoting. I was laughing. My mood seemed to be contagious to my fellow passengers. They greeted me with SMiles on their faces, which made me feel as warm as going Home. Sitting opposite me was an innocent girl. She was probably a female student, maybe going to School in other places. Because she was very beautiful, I couldn't help but take a second look. When she found me looking at her, she raised her head and SMiled at me. Only then did I notice that she was holding a copy of "Gadfly" in her hand. She stroked the cover of "Gadfly" and told me seriously: "This book describes the strength of the soul and unyielding ideals." When I heard this, I cried. I have never been as sad as I am today. My tears are gushing out like a tideWhen I came out, my body kept shaking, but no sound came out of my mouth. Every passenger present, including the girl, looked at me in surprise. But I don't care, I want to cry hard, I want my tears to flow freely, hoping that my sinful soul can be washed away with my tears.